Well these men are not making my life any less stressful lately the one says he isn't going anywhere that he loves me way to much And the other one damn him makes it so hard to stay away. God only knows what hes thinking anymore.And the one im married too dosen't like to share his feelings til after they eat at him for weeks and that drives me nuts. What am i going to do with the both of them .I am the one who just needs to get away from the both of them.And thata hard too do with the kids if I leave them with their dad for a while he wonders if im going to see him and he says hes ok with it all but i dont know his reasoning is that all that matters is that i come home to him in the end of it all. but its so hard to love two men . I feel like te past is repeating itself over again. I left mt frisst ol'man for the one im with now but i keep telling myself that was a whole another reason because k was a really bad guy and its ture he beat the hell out of me and then would cry he loved me all i was a place to lay his ass. to tell the truth about .R has never hit me or even lifted a hand in anger at me or even yelled at me. but i know i have hurt him deeply even though he will never admit it. And our baby boy I know that he deep down he wants him to be his but the fact is hes not but he loves his daddys boy and that all that really matters to me and to him. I know that M will never love me that way even if R left So I go on in this between two men nto knowing which way to go thats bad