Why is a man can brak your heart and not even realize it even when you tell him so .I dont know if even knows I love him ,Or he is making the choice to not show that he cares .Or maybe hes just in it for the sex.And oh god is the sex good .between he and I its so different then with my husband. the olman knows that the lover gives me something that he dosen't And no matter how hard I try I cant stay away I try to go for days and not call but then my cravings get the better of me and I break down and call him .All just for afew minutes with him every once in a while. if I wasnt with R I would go with him.But I just cant leave my kids .the fact that I let myself feel more for him then i should is areally bad thing He even said so because i got brave and told him this past weekend. he said it wasn't a good thing that i think of him like that but he didnt reject the fact either so i dont know which way to go .A friend told me thats its not possible to love two men like that but it has to be because I do .And I know one of these days it will come down to a choice between the two .Adn at that point I would have to walk away from them both .